Crossroads

I am torn between two vastly differing life paths and don't know which way to turn. When desire is denied and a door seems to be shutting, it can be hard to look through the window. Is the door really closed, or does it just seem that way? When you like what's out the window, in fact you once dreamed about it, but then you purposefully chose another path, it can be hard to see yourself back looking at the road previously abandoned. Some versions of the windows view may even take me back to the open door, but not just as I see it now. When does one let go of one dream for another and when does one fight for the first even though the second could be wonderful? How do I surrender to the greater plan and still do my part to make my dreams come true? Which dreams do I really want/ need? I feel a bit like Alice with the two potions to either choose from or balance together, but I refuse to get mired in another metaphor here. If the reason you are on the road less traveled now seems to be gone, does that warrant a new direction with tempting new possibilities? (Ones that I previously decided were not worth the sacrifices.) Or does the road I am on still carry the goals I previously decided were worth heading towards? Even when those sacrifices seem to be disappearing? This choice was so much easier/ more natural to make the first time, when I never dreamed I could be making it again. Does that make me lost or blessed? I rely so much on a strong sense of intuition that has never steered me wrong, what happens when it can't answer me again? Which way will I turn? I honestly don't know.